Are we there yet?

This week has seemed to be the most difficult week through this whole process.  Emotionally, spiritually, and physically I am doing well, but this hurry up and wait feeling is driving me up the wall.

Let me give you an analogy of what I am feeling, imagine being on this roller coaster and it is creeping up and up and up a huge incline.  You can hear the coaster slowly creep up the hill with its chug.  You sit there holding on and feel some butterflies over the whole experience because you know once you get to the top you’re going to drop but the unknown gives you some anxiety. 

I’ve made it to the very peak of the incline and now I am sitting…waiting.  As I wait, the anticipation grows more and more with each passing second.  You look and you know it is going to drop, but when?  How fast will it go?  What will I feel?  Because you have ridden other roller coasters in the past (though this one in particular is new) you know it will be okay but there is that fear of the unknown.  So you sit…and wait…and sit…and wait…